Seriously?

Why is it hardest to take your own advice?

And why is it when you already KNOW your problem, it's still hard to man up and fix it?

I feel somewhat discombobulated lately. My heads in a weird place, and I've been ultra crabby the last few days. I feel bad for my roommates, who have to deal with me. I don't think I'm a particularly pleasant person to be around. I also feel bad for the new guy at work that I'm trying to help train - I think I've been snapping at him a bit too much.

I just can't shake this feeling that I'm doing something wrong. I can't pinpoint where it's coming from, and I can't stop thinking about it. I'm driving myself nuts.

Would isolating myself alone in my room for a few days be a bit excessive?

Time to say goodbye....

I'm rather contemplative lately, but more at peace than I have been in a long time. I've noticed in the last few weeks that something's changed within me, and I really am a much happier, and calm, person. I just wish I could pinpoint what it was.

Actually, I can pinpoint it. It was the weekend when I finally got to just be ME. I wasn't the girl about to get divorced, I wasn't the sounding board for pointless drama. I got to be me, enjoy myself and my company, and have some fun adventures, and start to remember who I was before I dropped it all to become caretaker, accountant, cook and maid.

Since then, I've been making time to see people I haven't seen in a long time, and trying to work on bringing out that good side of me. I'm not perfect, I never will be, and I will always have my days. But for the first time, in a LONG time, I am absolutely sure that I'm going to be alright.

So, time to say goodbye to the old, boring, sad, me. And hello to the me that's been hiding in there all along.

In other news... Halloween is coming up quick. I LOVE this time of year. I've got a bunch of fun fall plans lined up, and I can't wait!