I'm rather contemplative lately, but more at peace than I have been in a long time. I've noticed in the last few weeks that something's changed within me, and I really am a much happier, and calm, person. I just wish I could pinpoint what it was.
Actually, I can pinpoint it. It was the weekend when I finally got to just be ME. I wasn't the girl about to get divorced, I wasn't the sounding board for pointless drama. I got to be me, enjoy myself and my company, and have some fun adventures, and start to remember who I was before I dropped it all to become caretaker, accountant, cook and maid.
Since then, I've been making time to see people I haven't seen in a long time, and trying to work on bringing out that good side of me. I'm not perfect, I never will be, and I will always have my days. But for the first time, in a LONG time, I am absolutely sure that I'm going to be alright.
So, time to say goodbye to the old, boring, sad, me. And hello to the me that's been hiding in there all along.
In other news... Halloween is coming up quick. I LOVE this time of year. I've got a bunch of fun fall plans lined up, and I can't wait!