Monday, November 7, 2011

Wanna hug me?

I've noticed, lately, that there is an extreme lack of physical contact in my life. Being on the road so much, you don't see many people you know well enough to touch. And in talking with a friend tonight, it really dawned on me how much I miss that. You don't really realize how much you miss physical contact, until you don't have it. And I'm not talking anything intimate. Just a hug, an arm around you, a touch to the shoulder as you're talking. Sadly, I go without that so much that I'm noticing I am very hyper aware of when it DOES happen, and I get somewhat weirded out by it.

My confession for the day? I really would just like to cuddle on the couch with someone and watch a movie. That's all. Just to feel cared for. I know there are tons of people who do care, I have such a kick ass group of friends and family, but just would be nice to lay on someone's chest and feel like, for a little while, I am NOT the one in charge of everything.

Interesting, how I left my husband, in part because I was tired of being mommy, of being the strong one all the time, of being in charge of everything, and yet in doing so, resigned myself to a life of... the same.

3 comments:

  1. Oh Jamie, your post breaks my heart. I wish I was there to give you a hug and take you on a girls night out. There are good men out there--real men who are everything you need. I hope you find a sweet one to cuddle with soon. Hang in there. I'm thinking of you...

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  2. Thanks hon, I'm trying. I think being on the road so much makes it even worse, honestly. :(

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